[It is nuts to start reading through my journaling and see just how much I have grown since the beginning of my time there ]
WARNING: The pictures don’t all match what is being written about . . . I just wanted to make this prettier to look at.
I forget how much I truly love Africa until I am breathing the air and hear the sounds. While sitting in the airport, I found myself thinking that I felt so distant from God and that that was a terrible place to be. Maybe I shouldn’t have come? Then I realized that that was THE BEST place to be. It simply means that I can only get closer . . .
THERE ARE SO MANY OF US! Mmm so 270 of us plus 230 bible school students . . . Not sure where they are going to put us all but I know it will definitely be stretching. 13 girls in one house. . . nuts! I share a small room with 5 other girls.
I AM SO NOT A BIG GROUP KIND OF PERSON. Oh Jesus, give me boldness [It is funny that I prayed this . . . I completely forgot about it until reading through my journal just now . . . not 2 weeks before going home, some one prophesied over me to step out in even more boldness than I had been]
I keep struggling with the thought of how I would rather be in Uganda. I have to remember that I am not here by accident. God, You brought me here for a reason, even though I truly do not know why.
I am so not used to being around so many people who are so . . . um . . . giddy in joy towards anything and everything related to Jesus and the Holy Spirit. Which mind you, it is a good thing . . . just not what I am used to. I kind of like it. I want to love God so much that just the thought of hanging out with Him is better than Christmas. What is wrong with me that I am not so completely and totally in love with You? I think that is just it – I am not completely and totally in love with You. That is what I want.
I am officially a part of the medical team now – that is awesome. Pretty much just means once a week or so I will be on call in cause one of the students is sick.
I discovered why I am so uncomfortable with being here . . . The Power of the Holy Spirit kind of scares me. I want to be broken of that fear.
Oh a side note . . . it is SOOO beautiful here! I love it for sure!